Why Should I Suffer?

From Sam himself…

Did you ever go outside and climb up a tree, and hang there upside down? In the dark? When the crickets are chirping? Wearing nothing but a pair of shorts? If you’re all alone, you start doing things you never thought you would do. When life seems to pass you by, you should ask God questions. That is why God gave you a free will. But ask God with respect. Sometimes God gives you what you ask for, but it may not be what is best for you. Always ask God, but request that which God wants for you, not what you want. I ask not to be lonely for all this time, but I need time to heal. God knows that. I don’t want to be a burden on an innocent woman. I don’t want a woman on the rebound either. I never want to hurt anyone like I was hurt. I am over it, but like the physical injuries I got long ago, I shutter when I think of those injuries. But there is no trace of those physical injuries, only the memory of them. Would I go back in time if I could, and change what happened? Like when I tried to jump off a ramp with a 10-speed bike? If I am on a 10-speed bike now, I don’t want to see a skateboard ramp on the road, because I would do it again, only 27 years later than the first time. I would not survive such a fall, or at least I would wish I was dead if I fell. I know that I will always make the same mistakes in life over and over again. It is my very being, my soul. I don’t want to meet the wrong woman either, or I will suffer again. Jumping off a ramp with a 10-speed doesn’t seem so bad when comparing to hooking up with the wrong woman.

Filed under: blog postings, pictures on September 21st, 2007